Most of my life I have felt like I don’t fit in anywhere. I’ve always been the girl on the outside looking in. I’ve felt this in all circles of my life, be it family, friends, acquaintances, church, & peer groups. The list could go on and on and on.
Of course, my feelings betray me. The enemy sends arrows to pierce my heart and wound me. As I age, the sting of rejection isn’t what it once was. But I still find that little circumstances trigger big emotions. For example, today I was reading a homeschooling magazine. It’s a lovely magazine & I enjoyed every article I read today. My faith was encouraged. The trigger was the cover. A beautiful family with several children graced the front page. That was my trigger, my hook. I thought back to past issues. Every single cover seemingly embraced large families. Here was yet another way that I somehow don’t fit the mold.
At the core of all my issues, all of my junk, all of my messiness, I was reminded that the problem was not having family & friends that accept me. I don’t have a problem at all! There’s nothing wrong with me (a common thought when walking down a dark road of rejection)! The brokenness in my life points to my need of a savior & my need to find my identity in him! Only he can heal. Only he can restore. Only he can bind up the broken hearted. Only he can provide a way to commune with God. Galatians 3:13 says, “Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us.”
John Piper says this, “When our sins are forgiven, and God's wrath is taken away, and we see Jesus as a greater Treasure than all the world, we are freed from both the damnation and the domination of sin. We are free indeed.”
I am free to be the person, mother, wife, friend, and sister that Christ created me to be not what the world would have me be! I am accepted!
What is your struggle? Maybe it’s very different from mine. Maybe it’s the same. Take heart & “…take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.” (Eph. 6:16). I love this resource from Freedom in Christ Ministries. When Satan tempts you with lies, saturate yourself in God’s truth!
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